It’s such an interesting balance — NRE and our intentional decision making processes. I really appreciated reading your story. After 5 years of polyamory, I’ve been taking a step back, which I often do when a relationship ends, and spending time considering: what is worth the risk? There have been times I’ve fallen in love and later looked up from where I fell and wondered “how the hell…?” And then I get scared to go the the edge with someone new. I don’t want to threaten certain things, certain securities, but ultimately, sometimes you have to for the sake of love and living fully inside love.
It’s all so abstract and yet, reading a piece like what you just wrote, I know there are others who understand. Thanks so much for sharing!