It sounds like you carried all of the trauma and sadness of your miscarriages and difficulty conceiving, and that you felt guilty for the way if impacted your sex drive. I have a friend who has been going through a very similar thing with her partner. She has given him the go-ahead to be with other women as she processes her miscarriages, but she realizes that she also needs support from him that she isn’t getting. Relationships can be so challenging. I’m glad you found a partner who is willing to do the work with you and offers you the support you need. Thanks for sharing this piece — it’s beautifully well written.