I love the honesty in what you share about ENM -- it's not easy sometimes! Sometimes I find it hard to fully acknowledge when things are hard because I'm so set on not "failing" at ENM.
I especially like what you said about accepting jealousy is a normal part of the roller coaster. It's true -- if you're not up for the ups and downs, it's probably best to not get on the ride. Good luck and thanks for sharing your experiences!