Especially useful for anxious types! — A few days ago, my partner Drake came home and told me he was going to go out with one of his coworkers. This was someone he’s talked about a lot, who seemed really cool, but in the past when I’d asked if he had feelings, he denied it. “No…

I have my first kinky “play partner” and I’m digging it — I’m heading out for a 2-hour drive to visit Aaron today. I met him online specifically seeking someone to practice rope with. Our very first time tying, the erotic energy was strong between us, but it has since faded. Now when he ties me, I feel soothed, safe, dreamy, and…

It’s probably not as bad as you fear — Last night I was feeling sorry for myself about something I regularly feel sorry for myself about: my partner and I don’t sleep together. I mean this in a literal way — we sleep in different beds, different rooms altogether — but it also has a direct relationship with our…

And experienced spiritual closure in the form of a deer — I’m walking through the forest and feeling a little strange. Maybe it’s the migraine I woke up with, or maybe it’s the microdose of mushrooms I took that took away the pain but not the strange feeling. …

Make sure you know your way back — I have drafts of pieces saved on my Google Drive. Six, seven, eight different stories, each one unfolding into long, unwieldy hallways, with doors that open into more hallways, each one containing even more doors, each new space darker than the last, more frightening, and filled with more demons. I…

Because there’s more to balance than what’s in the bank… — (Originally published in Lustery APRIL 21, 2021) I admit I like being taken care of. A part of me was curious. I had, for some time, been harboring this fantasy: I’d go on a date with an older, rich man. I’d have an excuse to get dressed up, to be…

The most profound lessons can come from the worst devastation — If you’ve been following me, you know that after practicing ethical non-monogamy for about seven years, I recently hit a place where polyamory quite simply just sucked. Polyamory Sucks Right Now Maybe it’s the full moonmedium.com My partner, Drake, started dating someone else during a time I was already wishing for more time with him, leading me to feel…

Talking about this plant in an Al Anon meeting helped me see the metaphor — I’ve been attending Al Anon meetings ever since my relationship began its long, painful process of either falling apart or growing — or possibly, a little bit of both. In case you’re unfamiliar with Al Anon, it’s a 12-step group for family and friends of alcoholics. I’ve recently come to…

Is my love fading away or is there hope yet? — Another morning where the moon is out the front window, against the early-morning, blue sky. It’s slightly less full than the day before. Drake is still sleeping. I crawled into bed with him around 6:30, after being awake about an hour. …